I don’t have right…………………….

I don’t have right to feel the way I want to.

 I don’t have right to say what I want to.

I don’t have right to ask you that why don’t you let me the way I want to.

I don’t have right because I am supposed to be a puppet for you.

 

I don’t have right to question you.

I don’t have right to correct you.

 I don’t have right to challenge your authority.

I don’t have right because I am supposed to be under your shadow.

 

I don’t have right to walk alone but only along with you.

I don’t have right to share myself with you because what exists is only you.

I don’t have right to rely on promises given by you.

I don’t have right to even love you.

I don’t have right to even feel the pain given by you.

I don’t have right to even betray you.

I don’t have right to even expect anything from you.

I don’t have right to even wait for you.

I don’t have right to even choose you.

I don’t have right because I am supposed to surrender to you.

 

I don’t have right to dream.

I don’t have right to demand anything.

I don’t have right to form opinions.

I don’t have right to live my life on my own terms.

I don’t have right to personal integrity and space.

I don’t have right because I am supposed to compromise.

 

I don’t have right to roam as freely as you.

I don’t have right to aim for the sky.

I don’t have right to have unlimited ambitions.

I don’t have right to nurture my interests.

I don’t have right to listen to my soul.

I don’t have right to tread my own path.

I don’t have right because I am supposed to look after others.

 

I don’t have right just because I live with you.

I don’t have right just because I am a part of society.

I don’t have right just because I am not supposed to doubt your experience.

I don’t have right just because I am the fairer sex.

I don’t have right just because my ‘only right’ is to exist for you.

KALKI KOECHLIN Who are we? (Hindustan Times (Delhi), 24 Apr 2012, Page5)

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KALKI KOECHLIN Who are we?

Hindustan Times (Delhi)
24 Apr 2012

We are ready for action, For tragedy, Atrocity, hostility And fashion. We are the impersonal. We are the people of the world The collective, The masses, The capitalistic, communal fascists, We are you. We love great films But do not live great lives….read more…

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How Far???????

How far can you go? How far can you convince everybody? How far can you make everybody happy? How far can you kill your spirit in order to fulfill others wishes? How far can you push yourself as a person you are not but what everybody expects you to be? How far and for how long you will continue wearing this mask? How far can you continue nodding and agreeing to everything which you consider is really bullshit?

How far can you fight with the hollow rules of society (which can be bend based upon the stature you have in society)? How far can you fight with these selfish creatures around you (the word creatures is used because they cannot be called as human beings and calling them even animals would be an insult to animals as well)? How far can you bear their hypocrisies?

How far can you stop people from being mean and calculative? How far can you stop people from weighing relationships as just mere opportunities? How far can you convince people that relationships are not just business deals?

How far can you go to stop the world from measuring human emotions and values in terms of possession? How far can you go to stop the world from worshipping money? How far can you go to stop the trends of capitalism, materialism, insensitivity and lack of faith towards fellow beings?

How far can you go in this lone battle for justice and right to life? How far can you remain caged?

Really how far……………….???

COMPROMISE AND TIME

The typical Indian mindset is to compromise for each and everything! Why? Because you are losing time….Whose time is it anyway? Yours or mine? And there goes the argument… generation gap, different thinking styles, immaturity and so on!

The volley of questions being thrown to us include: How do you know that what you are yearning for definitely come your way… Why do you want to loose opportunity at this stage… how are you so sure that you may not have to compromise in future??

I seriously have no answers to all these questions but instead I want to ask some questions… First of all about the perception of ‘right time’ which again is quite subjective? What do we mean by the importance of right time in our lives? Who decides that right time? Why have you divided the time of our lives into a series of milestones which have to be achieved at a particular age and that right time?

My next query is about grasping the next available thing because you cannot afford to waste time. True, with some matters you can take that risk but can you afford to apply this formula in all areas of your life especially in terms of relationships.

And most perturbing is the lack of trust and faith on fellow human beings which constantly instills fear and feelings of uncertainty… Are we going to loose out on something good due to our honesty? Are we being fooled by our fellow human beings? What if the other person breaks our trust? Why should I think with heart when the whole world believes in practicality and reason?

Finally, due to surmounting pressure, we have to compromise….. with our faith, belief, feelings, ideas and our very existence! I just wonder what sort of life we are expecting with this sort of compromise….

Dreams and Love…

What an unusual topic for a person like me? Bang… I know! But for all those, who become really suspicious as to how come I am writing about dreams and love .. just read a quote by Paulo Coelho.. Dreams and love are just words – until you decide to experience them!

But my curiosity lies in the fact… as to how can you be so sure that whatever you are experiencing or perhaps you want to experience is indeed your very own dream! Dreams sometimes have the power to make us probably unrealistic… Having said that, I absolutely believe in the power of dreams and working towards them silently, carrying them in your eyes when you are actually awake and not just sleeping… so what I mean when I said dreams making us unrealistic is that dreams should not be equated with mere fantasies!

And about love.. gosh.. the most complicated thing in the world yet when you are in love things look simple and straightforward which I believe is sometimes not the reality. You want to run away from love and you run harder and harder thinking that you have to be really practical but in this whole cumbersome process you won’t even realise when has the cupid struck!!

As soon as you realise that there is something fishy (feeling of love) going on within you.. (hint: you would feel completely whacky ) … you suddenly start becoming protective about yourself and your love…you want your efforts to give instant results… you are totally consumed by the feeling that is it worth my efforts and attention… you want to trust you intuition but you are just too fearful to do so…you become calculative as to how to achieve your love…you become closed.. afraid of your heart being broken! It would become all the more difficult to maintain equanimity for all those who feel that their love is probably one-sided and may never get reciprocated…. and along LOVE comes the great GLOOMINESS!!

Now, comes the situation when your dreams and love do not meet your expectations… the common reaction would be the displacement reaction…. on some external agencies….

But why not take charge of the situation on your shoulders…. make efforts for your dreams or love even if you see no results in stages of infancy.. give it your best shot and still if it does not work out.. do not blame yourself. The common feeling would be.. Oh!! I knew it won’t turn out well, only I realised it later.. I am so stupid, I was blind.. blah blah.. so it’s really okay if did not turn out well but at least you will not have the guilt of not giving it a shot!

I feel that the connecting link between dreams and love is faith…..faith that whatever happens, happens not just for the good…but it surely makes sense in the future which we are not able to realise right now…

Can I take a risk??

Risk…. What sort of reaction do you expect as soon as somebody talks about taking a risk?? Whooo… beware!!!  Take only calculated risks….. think of all pros and cons……… blah blah…

Really… don’t you think calculated risk is an oxymoron… What exactly is ‘the risk’? Something which you would like to do, which does not fall into the category of norms; something which is away from routine; something which we had always wanted but were unable to do because it might disturb our life; at last something which we are fearful of doing because it has the capacity to make us miserable if things won’t work out they way we want….

But are we already in the state of misery if we are living in a dichotomous state of mind where we are always weighing our decisions on the basis as to what is more ‘secured’ for us vis a vis what we actually wish and can really do (termed as risk)…

Why is it like that… when something which we had always wanted comes our way……..we do not want to accept because it seems like a risk… The problem is that we do not have patience to let things evolve organically.. be it our career or relationships…We seek instant gratifications….We do not want to wait and let things flow naturally.. We do not want to enjoy the beautiful moments that each day throws because we are not concerned with the journey but only the destination … We do not realize what all we can absorb through this journey….

The new path might be full of insecurities initially but eventually if we have immense faith in something… gut, sixth sense. whatever u might call it… it does show some effects in life….(I know people living in the age of reason will not accept this proposition!!) Not necessarily that we may succeed, you might get wounded…..but it would make us all the more receptive in life………. And universe will respond to us only if we wholeheartedly open the doors of our heart and soul to it…. and Yes, I think I should go for it!

Hullabaloo over the New Year

Happy New Year… Happy New Year!!!! Aahhh… that is something I have been hearing all this week…..

What is the big deal about a new year?  What is a year? Based on some calculations, man has divided time into days, months and years…. But time is not an entity.. Time is eternal (at least for people belonging to oriental world as we believe in circular notion of time contrary to the linear concept of time being followed by western world).

So how can a new year bring about any change in lives? Has it in any way affected the course of your daily routine? Is the New Year always happy? We party hard to welcome New Year as it is going to arrive in our hands and we would have all the capacity to mould and mend it to make it happy for us. Are we actually living under an illusion that ushering of New Year is going to satiate our yet-to-be fulfilled wishes or entirely change every aspect of our life and things around us in a dramatic fashion?

I don’t intend to sound pessimist by writing all this but what I just mean to say is that is it not possible to do all these things even if do not have the concept of new year. Why do we have to wait for a new year to do certain things? Also I do not mean to say that we should not have hope for a better future.

The only thing that troubles my mind is clinging to an external agency as an agent of change. You cannot catch time and tell it that you want a change.  It is not New Year which can provide you a colourful and satisfying life. Man himself is the harbinger of change. It is YOU who can give you a life you deserve. It is not only the moment of so-called New Year but any moment you want, can be the moment of your awakening!!!

What I really wish is that may this moment be the moment of our awakening from deep slumber where we cannot  see the misery, poverty, corruption, dog-eat-dog competition, dehumanization of society, ill-effects of capitalism et al., but most importantly the pit that we digging for ourselves each moment as a selfish materialistic society!!!

Words misunderstood…………………

The most common complaint of a human being… Nobody understands me!! This thought is borne in human minds generally in adolescence when an individual faces the dichotomy between realism and idealism. From here, it can take various forms…..

An individual may gradually loose hold of that rebellious spirit as reality gradually sinks in (which is the most favourable response as per adults);

An individual may form his/her own world in which his/her idealism is the only reality that he/she can see and refuses to acknowledge that other world (because that dichotomy no longer exists from him/her).

But there may be some who are unable to resolve that conflict (many of us are in this realm). Though these individuals, fail to relate to the world around them (world which is full of greed, selfishness, apathy, pseudo intellectualism, power, endless debates with practically no solutions, corruption and finally no peace), yet they cannot escape from reality check (because of circumstances around them). They want to break free from all shackles and constantly aspire to elevate themselves from their current circumstances. They are constantly going through an internal struggle though outwardly they may seem to be happy chaps. They constantly curse themselves for not gathering enough courage to speak to the world in their own language rather than in the language of social conformity. Their patience sometimes is tested so hard in this unjust world that they often loose their balance and develop contempt for those around them, and finally become all the more difficult and unreachable for people around them. The people, who are often the practical so called people with great worldly wisdom, close to such people always complain about them being not practical, being too demanding, stubborn and gradually the war of words become so intense that both the parties blame each other for misunderstanding each other’s words and finally  each of them becomes so reclusive and egoistic that none of them would take a step forward to peep into each other’s view point, making world all the more complex to live in.

Though I am not here to suggest any solution because there is none except the fact that we must accept each individual as he/she is (not necessarily that you should like all people but at the same time do not hate them). We must accept that each one of has different vantage point through which we see things in world. It is not required that we must severely criticize those different from us in order to prove that what we see is the only reality that exists. Stop this madness of getting a societal stamp on your thoughts by demeaning other people.

That… First Time…

Some of us are nervous, some are excited, some eager, some happy… and so on.. but we all have a definite notion and reaction to break the ice for ‘that first time’. In addition.. some would not like to shake their comfortable couches and go for ‘that first time’.

Even some would not like to do anything by themselves but would like everything to in accordance with their wishes…even for ‘that first time’.

Days of anticipation and planning can go to make that effort, a perfect one.. or at least matching up to our expectations….there would be days when you will ponder over the futility of even thinking about making that effort for ‘that first time’ (all questions like who, what, why, how and I belong to this category)!

Another interesting thing which I have noted is that.. some people do not have any reaction attached to ‘that first time’ as they may consider that work as perhaps something natural which is to be done by all (as if God has sent us with a legally binding document to cover certain work), borne out of necessity of being in society or perhaps survival..

And finally…why is ‘that first time so important’? (at least for me!)

‘That first time’ has the potential.. to shape up your feelings and thoughts.. it can arouse either despair or hope.. it can infuse happiness or cause lot of pain…it can give you a new lease of life or give you a feeling that life has closed all the doors..it can provide you fresh breath or suffocate you..it can arouse either excitement or …. it can either enliven your spirit or just crush your spirit..it can lead you discover new horizons and make new beginnings or leave you in lurch…it can switch you on or off!!

Whatever the outcome may be..(even if it is the opposite one).. it is necessary to maintain your sanity in all conditions (which sometimes is difficult to maintain) and remember that though this time ‘that first time’ may not have fetched what you expected but ‘YOU’ always have the capacity to have a new beginning and live what you wanted that from ‘that first time’ (even if it takes you umpteenth attempts to experience what you wanted from ‘that first time’ because only when you will take risks and discover, you will reach your destination).

 I am happy that I did it for the ‘first time’ irrespective of the fact that it was not successful!!

Here comes the first blog…

Its difficult… how to start a new blog… you think hard what to write.. what not to write..so many thoughts swimming into your mind.. but finally I decided I will write whatever will just come into my at this moment…
I just love writing.. expressing my thoughts through words is easy to me but still i can never write with an agenda in my mind.. I write because i just simply love it. My philosophy is simple..Lets keep things straight (I hate manipulations, boasting and blah blah…).. I derive pleasure from writing..(not because I want to be popular.. lol!!) I actually can not survive without writing.. because this is probably the only thing I can do…I want to write about a lot of things…as I am seldom with out a thought in my head ..
So here I am… wanting to put forth my thoughts, ready to learn, share and read new things and experience and a platform to connect with diaspora… I want to rise above my circumstances… and not succumb myself to the routine or cosy cocoon.. With this blog I wish to transgress the physical boundaries and enter into a zone of communion with universe whereby these boundaries loose their significance
I am hoping to get in touch like minded and not so-like minded as well people.. make them part of this journey.. the eternal journey of life..
Tomorrow.. may be an another day… but with sunrise….each new morning.. holds the potential for a new improved life… It gives us a choice to either plough the field or let the weeds grow..